I think my journey is finally over! The sun has never been so bright, the trees so green! I feel like a new person. I’ve been taking 120 mgs of Geodon for two weeks now and I’ve never felt better. I’m even sleeping through the night. I feel like the big rain cloud that has been following me for months has finally lifted. I have no weird side effects and I have enough energy to make it through each day.
You have no idea how many times I wanted to give up during this journey. It seemed so endless. But, I’m so glad now that I stuck with it and kept the faith. I was worth sticking to this. I hope I have encouraged others along the way.
I know my journey isn’t over completely and that there will be bumps on the road along the way. But, I am totally convinced that I can now lead a happy life without worrying about falling into a deep and dark depression. I’m not worried today about suffering a bout of mania. I am not worried about keeping my anger in check. I am not forcing myself out of bed so no one sees how deep in despair I am. I am truly just enjoying my family and the bright sunshine. My horrible muscle tension is even gone. I am so surprised by that and I’m so sad that I carried that pain for so long.
If you too are still suffering I encourage you to seek help. There is life after diagnosis. There is a medication and treatment that will help you be your best self. The journey can be long and utterly exhausting, but I promise you that the results are worth the struggle. Please seek help. If your not getting the answers you need, find someone else who will hear you. I promise you it’s worth it.